The One That Got Away.

You’ve been asking since day one if you’ll be okay, if you’ll be able to move forward and be happy again. I said of course, without hesitation; in reality, I don’t really know –I guess only time can tell. You were on a dark place, darkest you’ve ever been to, actually. It felt like someone have thrown you in some real deep well and poured pain, anxiety and depression all together –and it drowned you. Thousand times you cried for help –people heard you and wanted to extend a hand but it was like that scene from The Dark Knight Rises where people outside can’t be of any help; only your personal drive could make it possible. You prayed hard and tried countless tactics to get out of that hole; it took you long time to escape, nonetheless, you are a free person once again. You blinked the tears and dusts away and began to look at the world with clearer vision. The experience popped your bubble. Realist has overthrown the Idealist in you and suddenly, thought of faire tales seemed ridiculous and happy endings, well… they appeared to be very rare moments. You start living cautiously –weigh things and give people’s real intent a second thought. As time passed by, you start trusting people again. You find yourself with another person and it was blissful. Then, the inevitable came: just when you are starting to forget him –your paths crossed again. Everything came back just like that, everything at once. You can’t understand what you feel. You start doubting your feelings and your ability to move forward. Perplexed, you asked me how the mere sight of him could possibly affect you that much? It was one hell of a question and I can’t come up with anything valid and acceptable apart from true love.

If you once “cared” and “loved” a person with all your heart, regardless of time and how drastic things have changed, the feelings stay –they just need to be triggered. These feelings may have stopped bothering you but it doesn’t mean it fade away; they just turned stagnant or have gone to a state of coma. If you ask me if true love dies, no, I don’t think so. True love doesn't die on its' own however, it dies with you.